at work now. In case any of you missed out. I am working at CareerSense@HELP University College.
Psychometrics division. I don't know if i should use this as my official internship or not. Owh well.
friday already. I've been here for three weeks. I've finally come out with an Emotional Intelligence Scale. Everyone says that his method of doing things are not ethical, yada yada yada. I just could not be bothered. I just do what i am asked to by him. Who cares! bleh. (altho, the lives of other people might be affected, but hey, im just an undergraduate who hasn't even taken advanced RM.). I suggest that Career Sense don't use my scale. lol. I am just learning how to create a test. Item analysis and all that jazz.
Life's been pretty slow and boring. I mean, i go to work, gym, come back work on emmagem till like 3am
wake up at 7am. go work again.
this is supposed to be my summer holidays! What am i geting out of this???? *smallville themesong* somebody saveeeee meeeeeee.*/end smallville themesong*
I think im working myself too much. Although i basically lepak and do nothing at work here. *applying I/O Psych terms* I am super NOT satisfied with my so called "job". My job description is so not clear too. Maybe i shall create a job description for Psychometrics interns. Ally my knowledge a bit. Psychometrics is so not my thing man. After my internship, i shall just leave it to other people to do it. I want to be in the training team. Maybe I shall ask Mr. Franklin if i can help them in one of their projects. At least i have something to do here at work. I am already part of their project. I am designing a poster for their event. I wanna be in!!! feel so useless doing questionnaires.
haihs. boring boring job.
My usual lepak place is too crowded and i think that they really don't want people to go in their room as they put up a sign saying do not disturb. So i shall not go in to disturb....so boring omg. The love birds JeanEe and John went for lunch. My other lepak buddies are in a training session somewhere. I miss stephanie and jet and nicholas! the only people who can teman me talk crap (really a lot of crap) and do other stupid things at work.
no one's on msn as elaine's not working....why oh why. no one nice to talk to. maybe i shall randomly message someone to chat. but no mood to be all chatty. Where's Elaine and Kevin when i'm boreddddd???
this weekend's going to be a workfilled weekend too. as Emmagem is due and i still can't figure out the wordpresss blog!! i need wordpress help. I would ask Justin Wong, but he wants money for setting it up. bleh.
Can life be any boring-er?
i feel like dying really.
i need a holiday, or at least sidney to be here. at least he'll entertain me with something stupid. Even he's somewhere in Seremban meeting someone and can't reply my messages.
haih. depressed giler when there's no human contact.
I think i shall bake cupcakes today. I wanted to go Starlight Cinema with TK but he's busy. Then i wanted to call PS to meet up, but then i got lazy and decided to stay home and rot. like really rot. I have no mood to do emmagem and get confused over aspx,html,css.
i think i shall bake! I shall use whatever money left i have to go buy strawberries and canola oil after work and bake strawberries muffins. I only have 20RM. that is so sad. I NEED MY PAY! Don't care, i must meet the boss on saturday to get my pay. I should also stop spending so much man.
I hate money. MONEY IS EVIL!
im ranting so much, i am super bored. If you've read till here. i salute you...I'm starting to not like the idea of "friends only" in livejournal. Few weeks ago(or was it months?), I was cut off a girl's friends list. So sad ok, her message was "i'm sorry, i cut you off because you don't update anymore or i wasn't interested in your journal anymore". I'm guessing i was the latter one. Its damn depressing when someone just cuts you off like that when i have known her(journal) for like 3 years already. Like after three years, you're bound to get to know the person right? owh well. maybe im just not cool enuf for her. NOT! i will never be regarded as that low. She's just missing out on me! muahahahha Anyways, my point is, i don't mind if you cut me off your list like if i've known you for like a few months...but more than a year, i will just get sad. maybe im overreacting.
I feel lost again. like i feel like i am defined by the things i do and not for who i am. Most of the time people praise me for owh, such pretty cupcakes. or wahh, you're so good at html....like so bodoh. not like, karen is the one with the great personality! wow. karen rocks. i need to see a counselor. but i am too shy to see any of the counselor here. i want someone i don't know.
ok no more depressing thoughts.
Sidney's getting me a domain name.
What do you think? lyyyl.net (again) lyyyl.org karenmarie.us karenmarie.in karenmare.info OR karenmarieC.com (lol. like serenaC and adamC)
hahahaha. help me decide! which one is nice??
i miss lavena!Wanted to talk to her yesterday but she got DC and never camme back and i got sleepy...
omg, this place is so cold.
I shall take a nap.
I was so bored that i did a self made test! take it and tell me what you got! hahaha
feel so immobile when at work. cos must use windows 98 at work. eiuww
but i've been surviving at work.
things are starting to move along.
Went gym today. i suck at combat and jam and attack. but i like classes.but i hate hate jam. cos i really suck at dancing.
anyways, i've been going quite a lot lately, but not much also. i shall take a break tmr and go gym again on thursday.
i wanna be a gym junkie, but i havent got the rush yet. lol.
i've got work lining up like mad. emmagem's website development, Emotional intelligence scale, mindvalley design(which is due soon, omg!), and Inbam asked me if i wanna design, and i said yes!of course i want to! whether or not i can make time, is another matter. but designing is fun, i can stay up late also nevermind. EQ test only a bit spas, cos must think so much about items and all. omg. and tmr's my day to ask him questions and all. omg mg
can die ok. but i've been procrastinating. usual.
i met so many people last week and last last week...so many pictures, but im just too lazy to edit. lol.
I met sidney and we had a great time. Altho it was short.
I'm creating an emotional Intelligence Test. Wish me luck, it sounds so HARD. omgness.
I love my intern-work-mates/colleagues. Stephanie, JeanEe, Nicholas, Jet, Jasmine, Beatrice, WaiKi, CheeLian, 2 more of Ms Yeo's Interns and 3 of Mr. Kumar's interns(i forgot their names la ok, so many new names to remember!)
Not forgetting Sheila Marie (one of the admin staff who is chindian and Dr. Mustafa, my supervisor thinks we're related)
My Supervisor is super sweet.......and quite old but very nice. lol
I have super cool work clothes now. Thanks to mum and dad and Jusco Member Day Sale.
Owh, and i bought Make-up (AMELIA! i bought, i bought make up! lol)
She asked me to wear make up last time we went out together. lol.
Loreal Truematch Powder, Mascara (the one that makes it 70% longer), Lipstick (by mistake, cos my mum bought them and made me wear them),Eyeliner (free!)
I feel like a girl.
Life's been good...very busy with many many work here and there. but good
OWH, Khailee of MindValley (See one of the ads on my blog) emailed me!:) heehee. about a job as a designer at Mind Valley.
Sher introduced me to him, Thanks Sher Smurfy.
I hate the workload, but for the love of money and shopping i will do what it takes. even if it means sleeping lesser hours. lol
how many times can you say you've worked 4 jobs in college huh?
4-emmagem, careersense, my dad's secretary and mindvalley(if i get la....lol.)
I'm loving my Tempered Mental CD~!:) Everyone go buy one. Only RM20. heehee. Anyways, I still want their first first single, Honestly. I love that song. Shall go get it from Musiccanteen.com. but wait i think i have their mp3 on my brother's computer...
you know how sometimes you chat to strangers on msn.
some people just click with you and you can chat all night long. Some people just can't converse at all...like even if you ask questions and stuff.
i've had a few strangers adding me on msn lately. Well, a few, but i only noticed 2. I'm actually cleaning up my msn list....half of the people there, i don't talk to, and don't even know them at all.
so anyways, that day, this stranger, i msn-ed. I acted all bodoh, "may i know who is this (*sorry brain damage*) hahaha. i didn't wanna like you know forget people i actually know. hahah.
Then this stranger said he's from the US. I have no idea how i got his msn or he got mine. but we managed to have a decent conversation.
Then today, this guy, he said he added me longggg ago. i was like huh? then i searched his email on friendster. and i found his profile. never in my life that i would know this person la. lol. Why would i have his msn. haha
conversation with him wasn't that well. lol.
so off he goes. lol
anyways, my msn is seperated into few categories...
there are some people that i chat with like almost everyday. Without Fail!: Sidney, Elaine
there are people who i talk to often: Phan Shean, Tk
There are people who i talk to when i miss them or they're hardly online when im on: Lav, Wei Foong, Sue, KarenLee, wing sun, Lea, Riki, Paru,
There are people from college: Xue Zhen, Irene, Jean Ee, Shu Wei, and many more
Work related issues: Justin, XZ, Amelia, Denise
There are people from my high school/CIMP who are always online, but i hardly talk: Sze May, Chang Weng, Prabhu, Errol, Kevin Lam, Liang Heng, Chui Shan, chong yu,
Then there are people i met online and i talk often: Murderdolls (i think his name is Sashi), Lassi Ylinen(Sine IRC/ICQ days, omg!),
There are people i met online, but hardly talk: Lionel (Serge), Oliver,
Then there are aquaintances...i hardly talk to wan..
owh also, some malaysian band members: Kevin (i talk to like quite often), Rudy popshuvit(used to.),
Then there are people whom i used to chat like giler banyak then now no more: Wilson, Lassi, Kuan Shen,
lol. can't believe i listed down that. So yea, don't emo if i forgot to add you. lol. I was just browsing through my msn list. haha. i dunno who to delete. Cos one day, i might need them you know! lol.
well, i really wat to be all chatty to everyone, but sometimes, you know, memang got nothing to talk about. Some people when we chat, can go on and on because when we chat, we bring up other topics and like, both people actually replies. lol.
Kevin told me i'm pretty sociable on msn. LOL. cos i was telling him about how i am super shy when it comes to socializing. hahahaha. elaine has taught me a thing or two in "networking" hahahhaha.
owh well. IM communication. i shall do a thesis on that. lol
Went to Jusco with tk to celebrate his bday. Bought him Cake! lol. i also bought a black t shirt. hahhaa. on impulse, cos i thought i looked horrible.
anyways, i went to Amelia's farewell party just now...It was ok, met up with row, mel...just like old times, but not quite, but somehow just like old times. :D took pictures!:) will put up later. Owh, and I saw Azat from first semester just now. He left so fast tak sempat say hi also! Her guests are all so well dressed. hahaha. like they all wore pretty dresses and stuff. I was like in my jeans skit and t shirt. haha. lol. Well, i guess, college kids nowadays wear dresses to occasions like that, only i am left behind in the fashion world. lol. more like i got no money to buy pretty dresses la. haha.
I've been facebook-ing alot lately. lol.
and i've been also using "lol" quite often! ahahhahahahahaha
went to gym did body combat ALONE! lol was fun. feel all lighter now. lol. elaine came later on.
went to Tempered Mental's Album Launch@Laundry Bar was super fun:) bought their album, The View From Here. and i got their autograph!:) lol. they played a few songs from their new album. it was really nice:) i miss going for gigs! i should go for more. I miss loud music to my ear....i miss standing in the crowd with people. i miss head bobbing and leg moving to music (note, i don't headbang, unless im in a super moshed pit) hahahahaha. Tempered mental rocked!:)
owh, and... Sleezy old chinese men came to our table and chatted. hahahahahah. he's a movie producer konon. Also met Laily there too. going gym with her soon!:) Laily was with Jaycee and Chloe. was introduced to Amil from Dragon Red and Azana (his friend?). lol. im so bad at networking. omg. cos like i forget people's name after 3 seconds.
And I finally met Kevin!!! he came over and said hi! :) after so long of chatting online, i finally met Kevin from Qings&Kueens who said he wanted to retire from performing rock music. please kill him can? i love Q&K! must perform must perform!!! Karen will bake cupcakes for your album launch!:) lol.
went to Sanctuary later on to meet some of my friend's friend. Sanctuary was so-so. i prefer laundry. lol.
anyways. fun night.
i shall sleep now. its 412, omg! hahaha, hey im on holiday! :p
VERSE 1 The smell of your skin lingers on me now You're probably on your flight back to your home town I need some shelter of my own protection baby Be with myself in center, clarity Peace, serenity
CHORUS I hope you know I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal Myself and I We got some straightening out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life It's time to be a big girl now and Big girls don't cry Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
VERSE 2 The path that I'm walkin, I must go alone I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they? And I forsee the dark ahead if I stay
CHORUS I hope you know I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal Myself and I
We got some straightening out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life It's time to be a big girl now and Big girls don't cry
BRIDGE Like a little school mate in a school yard, We'll play jacks and Uno cards I'll be your best friend And you'll be my Valentine Yes you can hold my hand if you want to Cus I wanna hold yours too We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret world But it's time for me to go home It's getting late dark outside I need to be with myself in center, Clarity, peace, serenity
CHORUS I hope you know I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal Myself and I We got some straightening out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life It's time to be a big girl now and Big girls don't cry Don't cry, don't cry don't cry
teehee. this song temaned me through my depressed moments...really.
damn drama times when i either damn sad or depressed, blast out this song in my (then) radio/CD player.
usually after a fight with the bf or after fights with parents. HAHA.
drama giler. anyways, i slept the whole day today and i'm wide awake at 1230am.
study IO psych.
how funny that only during exam time i will find time to blog.
btw, this poptopus thingy, i found out through Zan Azlee's friend who is developing the website/poptopus...(once upon a time ago in May, Maria gave Zan my email to his friend then he emailed me asking me to work part time as a graphic designer but i never did send him my resume! lol. he wanted flash designer. i only use photoshop. lol)
must learn dreamweaver and flash this holidays..upgrade self worth (in terms of what i can do la, doink~) But my laptop is so dying already with photoshop and illustrator....add dreamweaver and flash program, i think it will rest in peace soon.
i want more memory/ram/whatchamacallit. (the thing that makes laptop work faster)