Thursday, March 30, 2006
not sleeping over anymore

yeah, you saw the biggest "prank"

HAHA

will give out no details more. please COME!!it'll be fun!:)

i just watched oc 318 without watching 317.

was too desperate to watch something. and my brother lost all my recent downloads. ugh. my computer went on a major change of HDisk. we bought an external one, 200GB, like whoaa! and a brand spanking new monitor. now my screen is clearer, and it does not spoil the eyes! hehe.

must download all over again!

including your 316, elaine! :(

so sowiiee...

the photostat people at the shop on top of main block is so nice! so friendly!hehe.

the printing people at the frame shop are NOT nice. not friendly at all.

i think the name Sadie is just so sad!:) haha.

HELP U C is OVERPOPULATED, please don't come to HUC anymore, ok? thanx.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
no mood.

bad bad crappy day. ugh.

im lonely and sad. i need something. or someone. or just a hope.

just edited hazel's layout. dun feel like doing anything else :(

i feel like a sore loser.

i was wishing for the lightning to strike me today while i was in the car. there were massive lightning today. very pretty to see, but damn scary.

Kirk Franklin's 'imagine me' helped me go through this. haha. funny how God works. i love God.

going. to. sleep. now.

luckily i dun feel suicidal, if not i will prob be in the last few pages in the newspaper tmr.


haha. life sucks!:)

imagine me

today i had this conversation with Shu Wei (i think?) and Justin about the turnout of the ADPSC April Fool's Sleepover Party.

Shu Wei: a lot of people said they don't wanna come because they have church events.
Karen: Really? but its on a friday night till sat, not sunday!:)
Shu Wei: Are you christian?
Karen: (ofcoz, immediately, i said, NO. *in my head i'm catholic la duhh, i always distinguish between catholic and christians*) no. So whats up on sunday, its not even easter yet!
Shu Wei: its a Catholic thing.
Justin: Owwwhh..no wonder i don't know anything about it.
Karen: Whats up on Sunday?
Shu Wei: Its Palm Sunday!
Karen: Do catholics celebrate Palm Sunday on Fridays and Saturdays? *blur*
Shu Wei: Well, some churches have camps!:)
Karen: *face palms* Ohhh, kaysss...

HAHA. damn malu. i don't even know this Sunday's Palm Sunday! *-_-

owh well. i need friends like that to remind me :)

i printed out damn alot of past journals to bury my head in tmr. *DIE* so much to do, so little time!:(

i NEED to finish my design at least by Wednesday. then do business from thursday onwards. haihs. DIE LA really.

owh, did you read the previous post? its one damn lame thingy i found on friendster bulletin!

really, damn lame wan. i wonder who created this chain letters thingy. this one became damn lame, the creator of chain letters also will laugh his/her ass off. hehe.

read on!:)

i gtg sleep. planning to wakey early tmr to get parking space and read some stuff. sheeshh..

Monday, March 27, 2006
omg, lameness

got this from Friendster Bulletin.

Message: Don't stop reading this or
something
VERY
BAD
will
happen to you in exactly 5 hours and 22
minutes.
This
is extremely freaky. Be careful what you
open.


During a thunderstorm ...

Beth: Hey Ben! Sup?
Ben: Uhhh ... nothing much about to go
to a
party ...
haha you?
Beth: Haha nice ... uhhh just staying in
for the
night.
Ben: I have this huge favor to ask you ...
Beth: Yeah ... what?
Ben: Can you please come over and
watch my
brother for me? I won't be able to go if no
one
watches him.
Beth: Ughh ... well ....
Ben: Please Beth!
Beth: *Sighs* Alright. I'll be over in a few
minutes.

A few minutes later, Beth arrives at Ben's
house.

Ben: Hey, thanks so much!
beth: Hehe. No problem. By the way, you
look
really
nice.
Ben: Thanks! Anyways, here's my
number. Call
me
in
about an hour and tell me how
everything is, okay?
Beth: Alright, bye!

Then Ben left. Beth headed over to Ben's
younger
brother.

Beth: Hey sport!
John: Hi Beth ... I'm really scared ...
Beth: Awww ... don't be. I'm here. Lets
turn on
some
T.V.

As Beth walked over to the T.V. , the
lights
suddenly
went out. John freaked out and screamed!

Beth: John, it's okay. I have a flashlight.
Hold on,
one
second. Darn it! The flashlight doesn't
work!
Uhmmm ... okay, okay, lets go up to your
brother's
room. I think he has an extra one.
John: *mumbles* okay.

As Beth and John headed up towards
Ben's
room,
they heard a creepy laughter that brought
chills
up
their spines.

John: *screams* What was that?!
Beth: John stop doing that. Let me call
your
brother
and ask where the flashlight is.
John: But I didn't ... *Johns voice started
to fade
away ...*
Beth: Hey Ben! How's the party?
ben: Good, thanks! Listen I got to go. Can
I call
you
in
5 minutes?
Beth: Sure. But where's the flashlight in
your
room?
Ben: Oh, uhmmm ... it's under my bed, to
the
left. I
think.

Beth walks over to Ben's bed and screams.

Beth: Oh my God!
ben: What happened?!
beth: Oh, hahah. Nothing, I didn't know
you had a
clown statue in your bedroom. It scared
me half
to
death Especially the bloody knife on its
hand. It
looks
so real! Where did you get it? Did you get
it at
the
Halloween store?
Ben: Beth ... I don't have a clown statue
in my
bedroom.

The line quickly goes dead. Ben started
panicing
and
raced home as fast as he can. When he
got
home,
he
ran into his bedroom, where Beth and
Ben were
no
where to be seen. He saw his brother
lying on his
bed.

Ben: *rolls his eyes and said to himself* I
can't
believe
Beth would play such an awful trick on
me.

He went and sat down at his computer
and pulled
up
myspace. He went into his myspace
account and
checked his bulletins. I noticed that he
had a
random
new friend. The profile picture was a
freaky
clown
face. That made him freak out a bit.
Then he saw
that
the mysterious clown friend had posted a
bulletin
called "Clowning Around". Ben opened
the bulletin
and
started to read it. This was the same
bulletin that
he
saw last night! He got freaked out and
didn't
repost
it.

Trembling, he got in his bed, next to his
brother
and
kissed his cheek good night.

Ben: You can sleep here with me tonight,
Sport.
Good
night.

Suddenly, the figure in the bed turned to
ben.

Clown: Now its your turn.

Ben let out a high pitch screamed and
the clown
killed
him. After the job was done, the clown
threw Ben
under the bed along with Beth and John.



If you don't repost this in the next 10
minutes,
the
clown will appear by your bed tonight,
while
you're
sleeping and the same ending will
happen to you.
When you repost this name it your
schools name.
This isn't a joke

Sunday, March 26, 2006
tagged

long overdue adey!from Denise

Four jobs you have had in your life:
1. giving out flyers for domino's!:) the one and only job i had!
2. Student
3. family member
4. bbds :)

Four movies you would watch over and over:
1. Sister Act 2
2. My best friend's wedding
3. George of the jungle
4. Dennis the menace

Four places you have lived:
1. Taman Nanyang, Jinjang
2. Taman Sri Kepong Baru, Kepong Baru
3. Bandar Baru Selayang, Fasa 2B, Selayang
4. Taman Petaling, Kepong Baru

Four TV shows you love to watch:
1. America's Next Top Model
2. The OC
3. Friends
4. Desperate Housewives

Four places you have been on vacation:
1. KK, Sabah
2. Singapore
3. Redang and Tioman and Langkawi and Pangkor
4. Genting? haha

Four websites I visit daily:
1. www.lyyyl.net
2. blogspot and lj friends page
3. gmail
4. random sites.

Four of my favourite foods:
1. Italian. carbonara. yums
2. Chinese. i love chinese food
3. Anything to do with potatoes
4. Chocolates

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. with bbds at his house:)
2. on vacation at some exotic beach, prob in hawaii
3. on the 29th of April at KPD at 4pm.
4. shopping at beverly hills with cash!

Seven friends who I have tagged that I think will respond:
1. Amelia
2. Lainey Belainey
3. Wing Sun
4. Karen Lee
5. Maria Elena
6. LP Shean
7. Sidney

**i doubt anyone will respond! hahahahahah..

Saturday, March 25, 2006
new layout, yo!

my firefox is pimped!

i was playing with firefox browser and i found themes!!!

i know, im like damn slow, but hey, it made my day!

lookie!! now i have a MAC os kinda typeface. and a pimped firefox browser!!

research, research!

“Energy Security and High Oil Prices: Impact on Economic Growth of ASEAN Countries”, Remarks by H.E. Ong Keng Yong, Secretary-General of ASEAN at the ASEAN Energy Business Forum, Siem Reap, Cambodia, 12-14 July 2005


this is what i'm doing right now. ugh!:(

OMG, im in love with this song!

Imagine Me ------Kirk Franklin

Imagine me loving what I see when the mirror looks at me cause I, I imagine me.

In a place, of no insecurities and I'm finally happy cause I imagine me.

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me cause they never did deserve me, can you imagine me.

Saying no to thoughts that try to control me, remembering all you told me, Lord can you imagine me?

Over what my momma said, and healed from what my daddy did and I wanna live and not read that page again.

(Chorus)
Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally, finally I can imagine me, I admit it was hard to see you being in love with someone like me, finally I can imagine me.

Imagine me

Being strong and not letting people break me down, you won't get that joy this time around. Can you imagine me?

In a world, in a world nobody has to live afraid, because of your love, it's gone away, can you imagine me.

Letting go of my past and glad I have another chance and not hard to dance cause I don't have to read that page again.

(Repeat Chorus 2x’s)

Kirk talks:
This song is dedicated to people like me, those that struggle with insecurities, acceptance and even self esteem, you never felt good enough, you never felt pretty enough but imagine God whispering in your ear letting you know that everything that has happened is now.

Gone, Gone, Its’ Gone, All Gone
Repeat 8

Kirk’s remarks
( Um It’s All Gone. Every Sin, Every Mistake, Every Failure Its’ All Gone!
Depression Gone By Faith It’s Gone
Low Self Esteem, Halleluiah Its Gone, All Gone,
It’s Gone All My Scars All My Pain It’s In The Past , Its’ Yesterday Its’ All Gone( Can’t Believe Its’ Gone) What Your Mother Did, What Our Father Did, Halleluiah (Its’ Gone All Gone Oh Whoa))

Oh na-na-na
Oh na-na-na-na-na-na
Repeat 3 X’s
Oh na-na-na-na-na-na

Friday, March 24, 2006
Massive update *with pictures!

Thursday, March 23, 2006
stressed!!!!!!

im almost done with my design and i hope James approves the colour!:)

other than that, im stressed!:):):) to the max.

exams in 5 weeks time. im doomed!:) yayness!:)

:):):)

v for vandetta is an awesome movie! you should watch!:)

i love my bbds!

stressed!!!!!!

im almost done with my design and i hope James approves the colour!:)

other than that, im stressed!:):):) to the max.

exams in 5 weeks time. im doomed!:) yayness!:)

:):):)

v for vandetta is an awesome movie! you should watch!:)

i love my bbds!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

been sick still :(

doing ADPSC stuff.

tell me again, why am i so semangat to do council stuff?

:(

i wanna quit!!!

Monday, March 20, 2006
errands

cottons!
i need to buy those! haih.

need to finish my work.

need to print.

need to eat and take medicine.

need to do so many things, its not funny (Foong, 2006)

HAHA

*Foong, W. S. 2006. I'ts not funny. Bandar Utama.

**bad APA format, but who cares!!!!:P haha.

Sunday, March 19, 2006
ive been sick!

in case you've missed me, i've been sick. still am. but must finish my "duty" to the council! HARHAR!

owh well, i missed the internet too.

need to get back to work. although the flu medication is kicking in. bleh.

see ya!:)

Kirk Franklin's praise songs rock!:)

i like.

Friday, March 17, 2006
another death in the family

well, extended family. Jesrina (my cousin's) grandfather, Steven Tata!:(

he was a nice man. died due to cancer. i think.

Rest in Peace, Steven Tata.

so more late nights at wakes and prayers still going on for my grandfather. been saying the rosary for the past week. if not once, twice. never prayed so much in my life before. minus all the church camps i've been to la!

its all good. its nice being close to God once again. and saying the rosary rocks!:)

you should try!:)

i'm going to sleep.

starting tmr, i'm officially going to take out my "P" from the car! muahahahhahahahahahhaha...
i'm going to renew my license tmr. hehe.

bye. very. sleepy.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
tired

its been a tiring week!:(

funeral and prayers....

being vegetarian does not help either!:) hehehehhe..

guess what, my grandfather is actually 94 years old~! whoaaaaa....

according to my grandmother, when they needed to buy a house, my granddad needed to get an IC la, ofcourse. so when he went to make his IC, he faked his age as he wanted to get the loan and my grandmother said he also does not remember his age! hahaha..thats why his IC got this asterisks on it after his IC number*

so he was actually born on 1912.

i remember writing that down for my history project back in form 2. 1912. hehe.

i'm about to change my layout. cos this just does not work. bleh.

need to do my in house seminar essay and do posters for April Fool's sleepover...

Monday, March 13, 2006
my grandfather

Mr. Vellakane Francis

• 85 years old this year.
• call him tata:)
  
• he's a nice fella.
• smoked and drinked samsu his whole life(well, until he got real old and sick)
  
• read the tamil bible every evening without fail when he could still read.
• watched tamil shows on tv and fought with me for the tv almost everyday.
• listened to me complain about my grandmother.
• gave me a pen one day, asking me to use it for school and study hard. (i still have that pen)
• reads the tamil newspaper everyday with his glasses on.
  
• scolds me for not visiting him often.
  
• gets RM50 from my dad evey month for his usage(alcohol dosage), but his wife takes it away from him.
• was sick and bedridden in his house for the past few weeks and did not want to go to the hospital.
  
• died this afternoon peacefully.
  

the funeral's tomorrow at Christ The Light Church, 2.30 and burial at the Cheras Christian Cemetery. i'm going to miss him!

i'm skipping school tmr. yay. no long 6 hours of class.

funeral= reunion. its the only time where ALL of my cousins sit down and chat and joke around :) its nice catching up with them again. see how grown up they've become. and how im still the same while everyone else has "grown up" haha.

brandon has a vietnamese girlfriend
raymond broke up with his already fiance girlfriend. (he had her name tatooed on his arms, like whoa!!!)
melinder, well, din talk to her much, she has slimmed down!
natasha has more piercings and still a football freak.
rachel, is well, being a mum:)
jesrina, haha. i see her all the time
jerome too.
jasmine is very a teenager now. talking about movies and music.
eddie boy, is 16 now. such a big boy.
and ofcourse, Rapheal, our smallest cousin. is as cute as ever!

did i miss anyone? owh, my brother and i. hehe.

my cousins :)

*****

i went out for a short lunch with bbds. twas fun!:) hehe.

went out with him yesterday too. bought another long purse from Maggie T and watched Final Destination 3. it was gruesome, i tell you! MUST WATCH! hung out at JuiceWorks on the couch. i've always wanted to sit on that couch, i finally did :) haha. had Mango Smoothie. yums.

thats all folks! i'd better sleep. tmr's going to be a longgg day!

Saturday, March 11, 2006
being rich

i was wondering last night as i was writing the "being-the-only-child-now" post.

i moved topic, and wondered if rich kids (definition of rich kids: have at least one (or more) maid/s at home and never have to worry about cleaning the house) ever get scolding from thier parents.

usually, when i get scolding from my parents it is because of me:

1. not cleaning my room
2. not folding the clothes
3. arguing on who's going to wash the plates
4. not hanging clothes
5. not washing my own clothes
6. watching tv all the time and not wanting to clean the house
7. ofcourse, the occasionnal me not doing well in school and going out too much
   
8. etc.
   

as you can see, my arguments with parents always involve house chores. i wonder what do people with maids argue with their parents about? because, other than house chores(because of my laziness), my parents and i are probably in very good terms. i will never know how it feels like to have everything done for me, as i will obviously never get a maid, or people coming to clean my house.

so, yeah, those who have maids at home, what do you argue with your parents about?

:) a question for almost EVERYONE of the people who read my journal!:)

Friday, March 10, 2006
relax la bradderr..

made another layout for KarenLee.

yay! all graphics are by miss KarenLee herself!:) hehe. im not the drawing type. only photoshop type. the only "drawing" i did was...


hahahahha, yes, you saw right. :)

its a sleepover! well, its not approved by the HOD yet, but we are so planning on it. :)

today was so relaxing. i woke up kinda late. watched Fashion Avenue on channel 11.
went to ADPSC meeting.

Elaine gave me a hug!*awwww* thanx..:) really appreciate it. and also to those who gave me words of advice/encouragement....Lea, Amelia, Hazel, you guys rock!:) and for those who asked me how i was...on msn. Samantha who saw my "emo" nickname and asked me if i was ok. :) lovely people, my friends:) ofcoz, who can forget my bbds, Sidney. who sayang-ed me extra a lot these past few days (love, bgds!)

anyhoooo...TK and Lav!!! when's our next lunch!!! you so busy is it? har har har??

Guan Lim, please call me when u have arrived. we'll plan something ok! this time, call me, so that i will make it for lunch/movies k? and bring along my HK present!:) hahaha *only if u did get me sth. :)

enough ot shout outs....back to life story.

seriously, i don't want to be president after Aaron leaves. because, i have many many more semesters here, and Justin should be leaving after year 2. so i shall suggest to Aaron that i shall remain vice, and let Justin be President. *not like he's going to pick me larr...but still, among us two, i think Justin should become the next President. not me. i am in no position to be a leader, now at least, i don't know ADP well enough.

i wanted to apply to be an intern for KLUE. then i realised i don't think i can do it.and the dateline is over. haha. but there was not a deadline. but then again, justin went for the interview adey. sheesh. i so need work experience. if not i can just throw acid down my throat right?

so yeah, after ADPSC meeting. i came back. lepaked. went online. finished KarenLee's layout. took a bath. uzapped while reading the ending of Angela's Ashes!:)

i'm done with one book this year. hehe. i am going to start with the shopaholic series!:) heehee. finally. ok, i know i am slow. thats because i finally found a friend who has the book!(elaine!!) hehe. my mum x buy expansive books, so i only read when its available!:)

i can't wait! i've heard so much about it. hehe.

i wanna go shopping tmr! but my mum and dad's going to Kuantan. but i have the car with me...nyeh,nyeh,nyeh...two days of pure freedom!:) hehe. well, i hope so!:)

i need to catch up on assignments and studying....:) if no one wants to teman me out. i think my bbds should be free. hehehe.

i think there's a nice movie on Star Movies. i shall go and watch! i declare today as a RELAXLAAAAA day!:)

so stop what you're doing and relaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!:)

see ya!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006
period. ugh.

its not nice. really. thank God you're a guy!(if you are, if not, you share the pain with me)

but i like being a girl. in a way. i just wish i was smarter or more attractive or slimmer. then the attention would be on me. being the "middle" of all the thing mentioned just now is not nice at all.

i wanna be good at something. then people will know, eh, that is Karen the *insert great adjective here*!

i suck at relationships with people. i suck at studying. i suck at being "sociable". i suck at being nice. i suck at public speaking. i suck at writing. i suck at being a good kid. i suck at being an obedient kid.

the list goes on. and on.

i am even stuttering as i talk nowadays. i think its the low self esteem thing coming over me.

owh no. its not good. someone help meeeeeeeeeeeee!:(

< / emo >

i found Mr. Avila's blog. thanx to someone who called him/herself "CIMP Lecturer Fan". omg, CIMP lecturers are superstars, they have fans! hehe.

its weird how he is so different from what i thought he was. i was reading some of his posts.

its weirder that now i am reading his blog. i wonder if he would mind me reading it. but then again, its not like he can block me from reading. hehe. i'm a stalker of blogs. really. i read, but never tell people i read. unless i really know them, then i comment.

oh, i found another ex-CIMPian at HELP! Veron!!! she's from year 2003. just before me. hehe. we were telling Aaron to have Theme Days at ADP. just like the old days! i can't believe i found another CIMPian. we all share the same feeling when it comes to CIMP. hahah. we were like, "it was so fun!:)".

i am supposed to be doing my homepage design and send Aaron some proposal. but i don't feel like it.

all i wanna do is crawl under my comforter and read my book, cry and sleep.

yes, i feel damn i dunno how to put it? depressed? is that a correct word to describe how i feel?
i guess so.

but i can't. i have responsibilities. i have the need to be perfect in every way. but i always fail. so whats the point eh?

owh ya, KarenLee and Hazel's waiting for me services. to make blog layouts for them. i think that would have to wait. im SO not creative right now. i can't even design a homepage. bleh.

but i need something to show James tmr. owhhh craps. business group meeting tmr. shucks. need to read up on oil prices. its 942. i shall stop here and get to work.

no use getting all emo. not good. delay delay.

i wish some anonymous person, not anyone i know personally/internet-ey, would talk to me. i need to tell someone my frustrations.

i need a damn psychologist! maybe i shall try counselling@ HELP..huurrmm....maybe. after all, its free :)

sidney created this smiley for me.

:-.) <-- thats me with a mole on my nose.

hahahhahahahhaa. little things in life that make people happy -quote Lorraine from ADPSC meeting today.

Monday, March 06, 2006
my final product.

i realised i never posted my design work online. heehee.

so here goes...

a million billion thanx to the pretty photos/images of aftermidnight__, Kevin Lam, Karen Lee and ofcoz lyyyl. (DUH, myself la!), google, deviant art, smkb website.

ALL design by lyyyl. (cheh...so proud! hehehhehe...)

thats about it, COMMENT ON IT!:) i know there must be something seriously ugly in these pages!:)

Sunday, March 05, 2006
cimp lecturers

i was browsing through Mr. Tan's blog, and i found 2 of me ol' CIMP lecturer's blogs! hehe.

Mr. Chris Quarrie and Mr. Jason Dupuis (his blog is in french!)

so yeah, more people to stalk blogs to read in my blogroll!:)

btw, check out Mr. Tan's Wedding photos. very nice.

i love pretty photos!:)

i so need to go study!:) see ya!:)

Saturday, March 04, 2006
Times Warehouse Sale Books!

Friday, March 03, 2006
lalalalla

im finally done with my design assignment. yay!

i got mail today! i always see HandbagFetish Community, how they always have an unwrapping posts. i decided to make one today! hahahaha.. its not always i get a package!:) hehe...and i've always wanted to do it..hehe.